When I think about what God has done for my life all I feel swell up in me is the word grateful. Several years ago I was at a point which I just didn’t know if I had the emotional strength to make it through, for I was very low in spirit. I had always known about God, but when it came to the things I held dear to my heart I struggled tremendously with turning any of that over to Him. I wanted to know God, and I wanted him to help me, but only if I had first exhausted every, and I mean every, possibility so I didn’t have to go to Him at all. If I could have handled the situation, the depression, and the consequences of my actions on my own I would have never come to God.
How funny the very thing I didn’t want to let in, the very thing that helped me through it all , is the very thing I wanted nothing to do with. Now I can’t live without God and never desire to know what it feels like to be apart from Him. Yes, grateful is all I can feel with an inexpressible, overwhelming love for Him. In my worship to Him I can’t help but spill over into my Praise for Him, because I am making it through!!! The things that used to weigh me down don’t any longer, for I am a new creation. I am so happy and it has nothing to do with being in a relationship either–I am just really enjoying my life. Yes, my life still has all the madness, the up’s and downs, but God also gives me gifts in the road, treasures for my treasure box, and tools for my tool box! I can finally relax when I am able to, laugh when I feel like it, cry without guilt, and love myself just because why? I thought I made the answer clear. It is all because I have God in my life now–I am free and at peace because he has me day and night!
So crazy how a new way of believing can indeed create a new way of living.
“Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalms 73:23-26
I love you God…